All This Time Lyrics – The Story So Far

All this time you’ve just been counting down
Making plans for when you’re not around
And taking shells out of this loaded g*n
Screaming out until my voice is numb

So just say you want out and we can
Stop all this pain now
How many seasons you’re not around
I spread your ashes onto the ground

All this time you’ve just been counting down
Making plans for when your light goes out
When you said it’s like knives inside your mouth
And you can’t enjoy anything like this now
Life running out inside your house
And your mood lacks all direction

Because you said you wanted out
But there’s still so much pain now
How many reasons for bowing out
How can I cope with all this doubt?

Nothing standing in my way
I think of you every day
And if there is a better way
I pray that you’ll show it to me

Nothing standing in my way
I think of you every day
And if there is a better way
I trust that you’ll show it to me

The first paragraph conveys a sense of anticipation and foreboding as the narrator observes someone counting down, likely toward their departure or demise. The mention of making plans for when they’re absent suggests a preparation for the inevitable separation. The imagery of “taking shells out of this loaded g*n” evokes a feeling of danger or impending harm, while the act of screaming until the voice is numb reflects the intensity of emotion and perhaps a futile attempt to express feelings.

In the second paragraph, the narrator pleads for honesty and resolution, suggesting that acknowledging a desire to leave could alleviate the pain they’re experiencing. The reference to seasons passing without the person’s presence highlights the enduring impact of their absence. The act of spreading ashes onto the ground symbolizes a final farewell or the acceptance of loss, further emphasizing the theme of coping with separation and mortality.

The third paragraph delves deeper into the emotional turmoil caused by the person’s struggles. The imagery of “knives inside your mouth” vividly portrays the agony they’re enduring, making it difficult to find joy or purpose in life. The sense of life draining away within their home underscores the feeling of helplessness and directionlessness that pervades their existence.

The final paragraphs express the narrator’s ongoing thoughts and feelings in the aftermath of the person’s departure. Despite the pain and doubt, they continue to remember and yearn for clarity and guidance. The repetition of “nothing standing in my way” reflects a resolve to move forward despite the obstacles, with a hopeful reliance on the possibility of finding a better path, either through personal introspection or divine intervention.